I was given the incredible gift of seeing my Dear Guardian Angel in a dream. I wish that I could put into words the whole long scene, but suffice to say:
1. He was STUNNINGLY incredibly beautiful. Very manly actually, even though clearly not "a man", but beautiful - like the perfect face. His eyes sparkled, rotating with all colors (I am color blind) in stunning magnificence. (He was 40 feet tall at one point and had transformed from a statue in a cathedral.)
2. He was ON GUARD. He was all business. Super serious and reminded me of an old Marine Corps recruiting poster, but was looking out, over my head off into the distance with a steely, penetrating gaze that - itself was awesome.
3. He looked down at me - right at my face - (AWESOME) and very clearly said something to me, but used no words at all. Straight to me heart. He told me I would be all right. (There is more) then he was gone. (I thought. OK. That's good I guess.)
4. I had NO IDEA what it all meant. 2 weeks later I had a drug reaction that caused me to attempt suicide. On my way to do it, I begged my Guardian Angel to help me. A friend suddenly appeared who stopped me, helped me and saved my life giving me another chance to walk towards real redemption.
I don't know his name. I don't need to know it! He is my GUARDIAN DEAR. I love him and he DEFINITELY loves me. He watches out for me, and he guards me. During the dream he also made it extremely, unmistakable clear that he was profoundly displeased at some of my sinful actions. He looked simultaneously devastated, broken-hearted and disappointed. Trust me - you don't want to see this look from your Guardian Angel. Oh if only we could all please God always! (Think about it - if he is looking directly at God at the same time he is watching you sin.... UGH. Please your guardian angel by doing God's will!)
Why was I reminded of this? Because of this news item: Ex-FBI Employee Claims She Saw Angels at Flight 93:
A former police officer who retired from the FBI due to post-traumatic stress disorder linked to her role in the aftermath of the Sept. 11 terror attacks has written a book about seeing legions of angels guarding the Pennsylvania site where a hijacked airliner crashed.
Lillie Leonardi served as a liaison between law enforcement and the families of the passengers and crew members killed in the United Airlines Flight 93 crash. She arrived on the scene about three hours after the crash.
Although Leonardi's book, "In the Shadow of a Badge: A Spiritual Memoir," centers on her vision of angels, she argues her life has been changed more by what she didn't see that day.
"The biggest thing for me is that that there were no bodies," she said.
Leonardi, 56, remembers the burning pine and jet fuel stinging her nostrils. She said she also remembers a smoldering crater littered with debris too small to associate with the jetliner or 40 passengers and crew on board.
"I'm used to crime scenes but this one blew me out of the water. It just looked like the ground had swallowed up" the plane, Leonardi said.
"That's when I started seeing like shimmery lights ... and it was kind of misty and that's when I first saw, like, the angels there," Leonardi said. "And I didn't say anything to the guys because you can imagine if I would have said, 'I just saw angels on the crash site,' they'd have called the office and they'd have said, 'She lost her mind and tell her to go home.'"
I don't know if Leonardi actually saw angels, maybe she did. While as the comment that I've got of a dream of an angel seems far more real to me, because it had more purpose. I don't know.